Chapter 52 Doctor Violet Berri and A Breakup

 

Hello everyone. Doctor Violet Berri here! You have no idea how long I have waited to be able to say that!

I have a job at one of the biggest and busiest hospitals and I love it! They have been keeping me so busy. This job has been much busier and stressful than I thought it would be. The pay is good though. I started my career as a medical specialist.

I still remember the first time I got to deliver a baby. That was such a happy experience I won't likely ever forget.

While things at work seem to be going well, my home situation has not. Now that I'm a doctor, I want to move out of the small home I have been living in during my time at university. I just think it's time to present myself to the world as a successful doctor and to live a more affluent lifestyle. I worked hard for this and I deserve it. 

Levi, on the other hand, feels just because the money is there now, we don't need to spend it. He doesn't understand my need to move and to have a more established lifestyle, one more befitting to a doctor. He says I am being a snob! It has become a huge argument between us.

While I am working hard at work, He stays at home. He doesn't have a job, but he is pretty good about picking things up around and house and keeping things tidy. He also has been helping out in the garden. My thoughts are if he's not contributing financially to our home then he should be more agreeable to my wanting to move into a bigger and better home. Don't you agree?

This situation is taking a big toll on our marriage. I feel strongly I deserve to move. I deserve better things. I have worked hard to get them. It's true he would need to get a job and help out financially if we did this and I think that is the root of his stubbornness to see this my way. He even tried to get one of our friends to agree with him. That was low. I was very shocked that he would do this. He should never try to involve our friends in our personal conflicts. I warned him to not try that again.

While I continue to go to work and work long hours at the hospital, Levi hasn't even tried to get a job. He seems to enjoy staying at home, working on the garden and painting. Yes painting. He said he has always loved to paint and now he is finally able to pursue this talent. He is quite good at it too.

All this stress is starting to take a toll on me. I am not happy living here any longer. I deserve to live a better lifestyle. Not the lifestyle of a university student, but of a successful doctor. I have worked too hard to allow him to hold me back.

I couldn't believe it when Levi told my best friend Breanne about our huge problem. I think he realized this was something I wasn't going to let go of and was hoping Breanne would see things his way. Of course she refused to get involved. It was a very awkward and wrong thing for Levi to do.

This man was trying to come between my best friend, the person I have known most of my life! I could not believe he would get so low. I've had it.

I was so upset I yelled at him in front of Breanne, something I never thought I would do. I was that upset. He is trying his best to manipulate me and is now trying to get the people closest to me to turn against me. This behavior I will not tolerate.

That night I let Levi know how much he had hurt me by what he did. The anger had fled, but the hurt was very real. I don't think I want to be with this person anymore.

This entire situation has been taking a toll on my health and even on my work performance. My boss called and disciplined me for forgetting to follow up on a patient he had referred me to. It's all too much.

Levi and I have decided to get a divorce. Well, I decided. He doesn't want to. He isn't happy about it. He wants to work it out, but after this last stunt of trying to manipulate my closest friend, I am finished. The stress of my marriage and my job have worn me down. I told Levi I am moving out into an apartment. He can keep this home since he seems to love it so much. While I still love him a divorce seems to be the only solution for us.

Before I left Levi and I had a long talk. He said he still loves me and wants me back. He wants us to get married again. He wants us to have our family together. He has apologized for his behavior and agrees he has some growing up to do. He even said he will get a job if only we can be together again. He said we can move into my dream house and he will help. 

He said all that. A little too late. Still, I find myself wondering if he really means all he is saying. If we ever got back together, would he really come through with this? Only time will tell.

For now, we will go our separate ways.