Chapter 54 Married Again and Cinny is Born

 

I'm sure it's not a surprise to anyone that Levi and I are getting married again. I think we've both grown a lot during the time of our separation and divorce. With our baby ready to be born soon, we decided not to wait and had a small private ceremony.

Mr. and Mrs. Levi and Violet Berri. This time for good!

We finally moved into my dream home. With the money I am making as a doctor we should be able to make the payments. I love it!

I've been keeping very busy at my job, which makes the time pass so quickly. The job has been challenging if not exactly what I imagined it to be. I guess it's normal for sick people to be so grumpy and difficult, right? 

I delivered another baby today. This part of my job is always the best part. It's such a happy occasion.

Life for me consists of working long hours at the hospital and trying to get a good night's sleep before starting all over again the next day. This routine is more grueling than my schedule during my university days. I never have time to enjoy this beautiful home I am paying for.

Maybe it's because of being pregnant, but I am getting tired. I am finding that I don't have time to enjoy my family, I can't enjoy my home. It's work, work, work and I'm not happy. I better hurry and get this cooked so I'm not late! *sighs*

I know I'm complaining a lot, but I am questioning my decision to become a doctor. True, the pay is good. People look up to me because I am a doctor. I have a beautiful home. The problem is, I can never find the time to enjoy it. I spend the majority of my waking time at the hospital. I just don't have time to spend with my family, with Levi. My extended family is aging up so quickly.

Just...so many things. To be honest, I am finding this profession to be depressing. Everyone is sick and grumpy, and it is making me feel sick and grumpy too.

I think I made a huge mistake!

I've tried to talk to Levi about my feelings regarding my job. He seems a bit clueless, or maybe he's confused because I made such a big deal and wanted to achieve all this. But...now that I have...I don't think I want it!

I'm so glad the workday is almost over. It's so much harder to be on my feet all day like this. I think Levi and I need to have a long talk very soon.

But first...time for this baby to be born. Meet my little girl Cinny Berri!

Levi and I sat down and talked about all my concerns. About how I don't like my job. About how I am not happy not being able to see him and my extended family. Now that Cinny is born I don't want her to grow up and miss all of her milestones because I am at the hospital. 

I think he understood and said he is supportive of whatever I decide. He reminded me I would have to give up this beautiful home that I've always wanted because we wouldn't be able to afford it. He said I should think about it. I did. I thought about it for about 5 minutes. I'm quitting my job. I'm going to do something I really love and that makes me happy.

Yes! I'm going to play my guitar and be an entertainer! 

Violet and her mom Ashley who is an elder.

Kaydence aged up to an elder during our family visit. 

Kaydence, Alessandra and Lacy.

If I look happy, it's because I am. I have a new baby. I have finally decided I am not happy with the work I am doing, and I am going to start doing something I love!